Basically, what that means is, you focus on the goal and set up short, measurable results that you work on in order to move you closer to your goal, without putting any focus on the past, of which you can not change. Only the present can be changed.
At the end of the day, your pattern appears to be pursue (rescue), then distance (escape). By your own words, your distance is rooted in escaping (not being engaged in) life.
How do you plan on ending that pattern?
Because without ending that pattern, you are likely to continue that pattern with any new R. Whether that be with your X2 or any new person.
What types of things are you doing now, that you have been wanting to do for a long time?
Do you plan on continuing to do those things? Or were they "one offs" that you just wanted to try on, for size?
