Why did I marry my first X. Because she was fun, because we had a lot in common, because before I loved her I really liked her. Because I connected with her. I can tell you exactly when it happened. We were all in college at the time and me and a couple of friends headed over to another college town basically to party. One of those friends was my X1's brother and we were crashing at here place (she went to the university in that town and invited us up). I really didn't know her at all, just met a couple times while hanging out with my friend (her brother). Anyway, that night she and her brother got into a fight, he was really harsh, she ended up crying and I was naturally drawn to consoling her. After that we were a item, had a long distance relationship until college was done and the rest is history.
<How was the love for your X1 when you M her different than when the two of you D? Or was it?> Well, I think it was different in all the normal ways. We had been together like a decade so in the beginning it had all the new love feelings etc. After 10yrs, graduating, making careers, buying a house, etc, it was like many marriages - I guess the spark was gone, I wasn't engaged, etc.
<Do you feel you emotionally mourned the loss of M1?> No, I don't think so.
I don't think me being engaged had anything to do with X1 or X2. That is my issue and I want to own it. Also, I didn't stop being engaged with X1 (or X2 for that matter), I stopped being engaged in life.
