Last post here at this time, not sure if you will respond or if you will simply leave the board.
First, I did the math so, you were about 33 when your X2 came back into your life, give or take.
I get that suggesting you were MLC is harsh. So tell us. Do you really feel that you were not MLC? You mention that you had not been engaged with X1 by the end of the M1. That you'd buried yourself in work. That you didn't love X1 THAT way. That X2 just HAPPENED to come back into your life. That you realized the two of you were soul mates. That everything just seemed to be amazing for you for four years. That by the 5th year, you were getting "bogged down" again, stressed (depressed) and that you went onto meds (I'm guessing ADs). And that ultimately... you became like her X1, that you disengaged from her. Basically, for her, it was the same thing... all over again...
And... you mention that X2... "gave up on you"... by the end of M2. As though somehow, it was up to her to kick you in the butt. That she was the one that needed to enlighten you... that she... somehow is to blame for D2...
So I'm just putting that out there, as harsh as it might feel for you. And...
You now mention how you are so engaged in life again, now. That everything is wonderful and you're becoming this great guy now.
And you ask if I don't believe what you are saying?
It sounds like your personal betterment and new engagement in life...
