Okay guys...keep me strong. Last email was sent about work, kids schedule. D saw H at friends place so I pulled in. He was with two other friends at house. D talked, I talked with friends, never got out of car. Was chatty, fun, pleasant, and a general delight. Said we had to go I worked tonight. Tonight? H says I say " yes a party for the rugby boys"

He knew this cuz he was coming to talk and have a drink tonight. He said I have to cancel I have a dinner. The fact he is at friends kind of caught him in that lie.

So;

He is clearly uncomfortable with the emails last week and thinks I put hope in them. I know you all told me, keep hitting me with the stick.

He is still lying after I said it is a killer for me. I know, nothing of what they say.

Off grid? No. Off fb and email ( the one he contacts me on? ). Yes for two days to start.

It is truly the spin cycle and I know it. His relationship is out in the open but kids don't know. I am sure she has been out here and stayed at SIL since SIL asked Ow to help out at event tomorrow. OW is busy, or kind. One of the two. H says busy. Don't ask about that convo it was work related since we both help out sil.

Okay, will get the book Regretful and read it.

Heaven help me....my adrenaline finally ran out lol! You know when you are in crisis mode and you just do? My body has realized what it thought is crisis mode will be normal mode until further notice and has said " oh, well, you really don't need the adrenaline and extra serotonin and has shut that down lol!

Don't worry, had excellent GAL today. Don't mind telling everyone my H left me and am doing all the things I wanted to try smile okay, not everyone, but it makes it easier for me to accept switch too. D looked at me today and said" you know mom? You're really pretty". That was just before we saw H and stopped and he looked not that pretty. So is good!

Off to bartend private party of rugby players smile