Spent today with family and went to 'Breakfast with Santa' and then did some shopping for D7's school party crafts. Got home and did a little Christmas crafting which was fun (and something I've always avoided in past). We all had a bunch of laughs and had a good time together even though S4 was trying to be bad at times. In my head I kept asking myself what is so wrong with this life and why does she want out??? I still really struggle to understand the WAS and not wanting to work on M when the S is obviously wanting to and willing to change. I understand not being happy and feeling need to leave if no change but if S is truly interested in changing why not take a chance to see what could happen??? Especially if married for several years with kids. I'm guessing I'll likely never understand because I always feel like people deserve another chance.
W and kids are going to her work party and I'm going to dinner and see The Hobbit with friends. I'm sure I'll have a good time and I'm GAL'ing but when I'm honest with myself I kind of want to spend the evening with them and it bugs me that I can't.
I also read in a post last night regarding LBS being frustrated with both the feeling of being in limbo and being sexually starved. We have absolutely no intimacy or physical contact and it's probably not good that's on my mind now also .
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
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