I don't know what to tell you bub, except the fact that you're not alone.
I've seen a habit since lurking here that lots of times you don't get any responses. Please don't let this encourage you to stop posting. So, please keep us updated.
At least you're getting a long better than me and my stbxw did before we separated completely back on halloween. I moved out the next day. To my friends and she to her brother's.
I know it's tough man, but hang in there. Time really is the key. Try to keep yourself busy, do things you miss doing, like model cars or something.
Take care and keep us posted.
M: 36/W: 28 T 11yrs / M 7yrs /1x 3yo D Sept: W Cheated w/ teen, BDrop. W Beast. Hated me. Oct: 18 (M license)W Asked for D Oct: 31 (Anniverary)W Paid Lawyer Nov1st: Both moved.