I notice that I have to work on appreciating it rather than negating it. I have negative tapes that play in order to keep my expectations down. It really is a challenge to remain positive AND without expectations.
I hear you on this. I struggle with the same. I sometimes feel like its to the point where I can't accept anything positive coming from him at face value, because I assume it is tied to an unknown, unexpected, upcoming BD.
I don't have full confidence in myself I think. I am still 'afraid' to feel at complete peace with myself because I feel my defenses will become weak and I will lose perspective and let those dang expectations come back.
I do try and continuously work on further detachment and PMA and I think I am much more consistent in my newly acquired behavior and mindset in general, although there is still aspects of fake it till you make it within my heart and mind.
Lets not let each other work so hard at protecting ourselves that we forget to live and enjoy our lives, and the blessings that surround us.
(((((SD)))))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
