Stuck between a hard place and the biggest rock.

[Big Bruce]

OK, resolve for the new year :

- Not TOUCH THE STOVE WHILE IT'S HOT.
Until now, it was almost a rule : contact her at least once a day, lest she forgets me.
The reason is that if I don't contact her, guess what happens? Bingo, she doesn't contact me either... I tried to go semi-dark in the begining, as a 180 test, and this is what happened. Thus my fear...
I will force myself to not initiate contact several times a day.

- I WILL LET THE HOUSE BURN DOWN BEFORE REBUILDING.
Although I already thought a lot, and learnt big time, I must now be a patient man, If the opportunity is given to me again, not blow it a second time.
Also, if she doesn't have the feeling she lost me, she has no reason to want to find me again.


- LEARN TO LISTEN AND EMPATHIZE.
For one, it will help me communicate with W, and allow me to ask questions without coming across as mad or manipulating (or accusing).

There. Thank you. Bruce

P.S. I have sent a version of the little text about her wishes and concerns about raising S together, because I have to answer very very soon about a day care spot that opens in January, or it'll go to someone else. Spots are rare here. I need her to agree to give me S every other week in January.
But the court hearing is only Jan. 18, and we don't know the result (although we wish it is 50-50%).
Unless I pay 600$ in January to secure the spot, (even if nobody shows up), but what a waste of money.