W and I live in the same house and W chants every morning; she belongs to this SGI Buddhist group. After everything I know and have found out, I still come down and join her most of the time. I know she likes this and for me it's some hope and helps my day. She is actually quite pleasent after as the conversation is pretty light. Well today, I couldn't help myself, after we were done chanting I came behind her and started to rub her shoulders, neck and back. It just felt so good to actually just touch her again. She told me it felt good so I continued for a few minutes more while she talked and I listened. She had me stop when I started to go a little further. But we resumed talking after; finances and such and then we go our separate ways to get ready for the day. I also text her everyday wishing her a good day, it's just something I have always done.
She always seems to be in a good mood, although as I said before, she is bipolar and takes medication for depression. I know she is in replay and is a Cake eater, and I read that MLC comes with depression, but I see no signs, the drugs, I believe, are artificially warding off the depression. Confused as to how this may play out. Also confused as to my actions, sometimes I don't know what to do and my marital instincts take over, for better or worse.
M - 55 W- 49 S-19, D-16 Married - 24 Bipolar Dx - May 1996 #1 BD - Jun 2011 #2 BD - Feb 2012 #3 BD - Oct 2012 Reconnecting - Jan 2013
"I'm going off the rails on a crazy train!" - O. Osbourne
