Good news on the job being extended. I hope that reading this book helps you to focus more on you and living for you no matter what happens.
Your posts sound like where I was before I saw that H was looking at the homes we couldn't afford. I felt like I was clinging on to the M and was getting frustrated with making so many changes, but he wasn't. And he wasn't admitting his role, taking responsibility, etc. etc. I know you know what I'm talking about.
Now that I am focusing on my future, I am really starting to not care or be reactive to my H. I still love him and would like the M to work, but I know I'll be ok. It will still be emotional and hard if/when I move and I know I will still have bad days. But I am also starting to envision life without the black cloud over me.
I hope that reading this book and not worrying about the outcome helps you to detach more. Have you ever talked to your IC about the reality that H may want a D and what that looks like for you?
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together
