I hope today was a good day for you. Christmas has always been our big holiday. Every year it looks like Christmas blew up in my house. We put up 7 trees of different sizes. I have a 4 1/2 foot nutcracker! We loved Christmas. It was a time to go all out with the decorations and spoil the girls and spend so much time together as a family. It's hard to pull the stockings out and have to put H's back. The girls don't want anything of his out. By the way it sounds, you love Christmas too. We need to find what really matters, what there is to celebrate this year. Try to put your troubles aside and enjoy your beautiful son. Pray everyday and remember how wonderful you are. I know your son thinks you're wonderful!
