Sorry you're having a bad day Dawn. I know how that feels!
It is hard to try to sort out our feelings for our H's, isn't it? I find myself with many negative and positive emotions for him all at the same time. One big tornado of emotions, spinning around and around.
What calms me lately is to really make an effort to look at him objectively. He is royally f-ing up his life in every way, yet totally oblivious to it. Man, would it svck to be him! I think this everyday.
And yes, they have brought their big MLC fist down on our lives, smashing them to bits. But, our R with them is just 1 part of our life. Quite honestly, I'm very happy with my life... Except for the alien pod person I'm living with!
Nero, I do wonder what he thinks I think. I feel like he tries to hide his secrets because there is that guilt and shame of what he is doing. If OW is so great, then why doesn't he leave me to be with her? Hey, make the R official! Truly, he uses both of us.
It is hard when the rose colored glasses come off and we see our spouse, and ourselves, in a not so flattering light.
I guess where I'm at now is that I feel that I do still love him, but have lost so much respect for him. Plus, I don't trust him in any way.
He's a mess. He even says he is!
Just remember ladies, it's much better to be us than them
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
