oh geeee - you sound like me - land of the living dead here too. funny kind of day- didn't mope- or cry or anything drastic- plugged away- but feeling rather pointless and certainly not "cheery" in the background of my mind.
it is such a drag- and i agree with you and takeshervows - my feelings have changed - alot. i can hardly say i love him- i don't think i can at this moment. up til bomb- i could love without a moment's thought- thru & thru - now i'm all scabbed up heart and covering up like crazy. i cannot imagine feeling for him what i once did. i'd say he assumes i still love him- i don't even like him.
"something" - still has a hold on me- but then i have a pair of shoes from 1972 with happy italy memories attached. i'm a person who is sentimental to point of insanity and does have trouble "letting go" across the board.
he called to day- twice - all pleasant and chatty. i'd say guilt and he's gonna see ow. I contained myself- i was pleasant but rushed off the phone kind of. i don't know- i just have nothing to "share" in conversation with him sometimes - it's icky. i wonder why he bothers???.
will continue later- walk waiting & neice needs help with report- all of a sudden-
