I do believe that I can forgive my H. But, I'm not so sure I can ever trust him or believe in him again.
To me, forgiveness is a realization that everyone is human and makes mistakes. Trust is believing they won't make those same mistakes again, or at least will do their absolute best not to.
And while we are changing and growing in so many positive ways, I feel that the way I feel about my H has changed too, but not necessarily for the better.
Having your heart broken, over and over again by the same person changes you.
I still love and care about my H. I want him to get better. I want him to have a good R with our children.
I just don't know if I want him.
And I surely don't want to give him another chance to hurt me again.
We'll figure this all out eventually
Hang in there!
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
