OK. now here's the part I think warranted a separate post.
Remember how I said I was feeling DONE, but then again I wasn't becoming a little more unsure of it?
Here's our text exchange from yesterday:
W: Hey...i just talked to my atty and he said they r waiting for ur atty to respond...said its been a month. Do u know anything or any reason this is being delayed? JB: Actually my atty and I have been emailing over the last couple of weeks, so we're working through it as we speak. Should see something soon. W: Is there something going on that we need to talk about...i dont understand JB: Do you mean with the agreement, emotionally, or either/or? I can give you a call on the way home if you like. W: Call me please on ur way home.
So I called her on my way home.
I explained I was moving the process forward, although I've been very busy at work. However, I am moving forward, unless you throw up a big red stop sign. She asked me if I'd seen that stop sign. I turned it around to that it sounds like I should be asking her that question.
SO here comes the bomb.
The conversation then turned to how God's really been working on her lately. She's feeling like maybe she's hearing we should get back together, but she's really confused about it. She said she was a total mess. I just let her talk and I listened. She said she's never thought that way during this whole journey and it's very confusing to her.
At one point, she asked if I would even consider reconciliation. I told her I would be open to giving it a shot, if she's willing to put some work into it.
We both agreed it be a slow process and we should start by perhaps just getting together a couple of times as a family and doing something light and fun. We should get together and talk a couple more times soon. We want to discuss if reconciliation is even possible. If nothing else, we've agreed that having this conversation would at the very least give us some closure and some peace with the whole situation. If we were to reconcile, we mutually agreed it would be more like starting over and rebuilding instead of patching up what we had before.
The way we left was both of us are going to contact our Ls and we are going to say we're putting the D on hold until the beginning of the new year. At that point, we'll re-evaluate and see what we want to do.
