Put your hands up; it's a wild ride

[someguy1233]

Yesterday was an interesting day full of interactions with W.

W called in the morning wanting to talk about her job interview. During the call she made a comment, “You don’t even like me.” It was said with sad/needy tone. I laughed and said “awwwww…” (Not in a mean way, just sympathetic)

I had the afternoon off from work. W called me while I was leaving work. She asked if I wanted to hang out with her while she drove across town for a quick meeting with a recruiter. She said we could hit up the fancy grocery store on that side of town. She said it would be nice to spend some time together. I agreed. This is where the conversation got interesting….

She asked, “Do you want to go on a dress-up date some time?”
Me, “Sure. Do you have anything in mind?”
W, “No. I just thought it would be nice to go out and do something different.”

She talked about her job options. She talked about possibly becoming a stay at home mom. This is something she hasn’t mentioned for weeks. Her staying home would obviously involve us staying together. She’s expecting a job offer from a company she’s not very interested in. I told her that she shouldn’t have to take a job that is going to make her miserable and that she should keep looking, or stay home with S. I said, “ultimately, you can do whatever you’d like. But know that I support your decision, no matter what you decide.” (This is continuing on my 180 to stop talking about money.)

While we were grocery shopping my work phone was going crazy and I was reading emails. She said, “You’re not really here with me are you?” I apologized and put my phone away. This was very surprising… she hasn’t seemed to care if I was “with her” in a long time. She held my hand as we walked through the store.

She asked if I still liked her. After a bit of a pause, I responded “yes.” She gave me a LONG kiss at the stoplight. She talked briefly about how she wanted to stop being “scrambled.” She said she wants to be organized and drink less.

When we got home she wanted me to play with S in the kitchen while she cooked. She wanted us to be together. She gave me multiple kisses. She said “I love you.”

She gave me multiple compliments, telling me I’m a great guy, amazing father, handsome, etc.

This morning I dressed up for work more than usual. She noticed and asked why. I told her, “no reason.” She demanded a hug and a kiss as I left. She said “I love you.”

I’m trying not to get my hopes up again. We went through a day like this about two weeks ago and she snapped back out of it quickly. I’m trying to maintain my same behaviors this time.

I made plans for tonight. I’m going to help my dad and grandpa with a project. W wasn’t happy that I was leaving, but I need to continue GAL and maintaining some space.