The green green grass of home. (Part 2 )

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks guys. It is definately a whole lot easier these days than before but it's still hard. Mainly at nights and trying not to think of H in the day.
I just realized that, that was a goal I made a month or so ago.
To leave my greaving to nights and not let it interfere with my days. Maybe it worked a little and I didn't even realize.
H still enters my thoughts way too much in the day.

I'm going to let the kids do their rooms on the weekend if we get the chance. It's going to be another very busy weekend.
The kids are upset at not having all the lights outside but there's not much I can do about that. I can't do the roof ones, I don't even know what part of the roof that H used to put the leads through.


My sleep patterns are all over the place but that's normal fo me. I have sleep disorders, so it's something I have been dealing with for years. I do notice it's worse if I don't get enough sleep or even if I get too much.