I think you've had a light bulb moment and that's good.
But just a caution, let go of outcomes and focus on you. When you get up each with the goal of creating YOU and the life you want, the outcomes often take care of themselves.
And you will feel so. much. better.
I'm happy for you, you sound lighter.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss