Honestly, I don't even know why it hurts so much. I don't want a part time husband anymore. H seems happy enough with things the way they are. He can go out and party whenever he wants. If that's the life he wants, then who am I to stop him?
I can relate. I have the same feeling sometimes. When I, X and S is together ususally we have such a great time. When I leave I wish it could be like that all the time. However, focusing on what isn't, won't help us do anything productive. I try to think of it like this, although there is a lot of negative it's better to focus on the positive. Some day the sitch may take a turn for the worse, or just no turn at all. I don't want to be left with the feeling that I've wasted the positive focusing on what was negative.
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I really need to work something out for the nights. Once the kids are in bad and I'm finished doing stuff for the night, the pain comes back.
How are your sleeping patterns? Do you go to sleep at normal times? If I get up early every day, work or not, I find I'm often too tired in the evening to ponder on the sitch. Sleepless nights can be pretty rough when things are down.
Together for 8,5 years. S2 Interest in OM. She left 29.09.12 b/c we couldn't work things out. No signs of OM, not digging. Living in seperate homes, sharing custody.
