My Security Blanket

[bustingout]

Thank you NG, Tori and Ruby :-)

I appreciate your words and love :-)

I am down still I realized today. I still feel unhealed at times.

I really wish H wasn't leaving to go visit OW. I know I can't control it. Its just such a downer. Things were so nice these past several weeks. We were starting to feel like a family again. I know thats only my perspective.

I know he must see things much differently. So, in a way, this trip may be a good reality check for me on where he really stands.

My kids are not sad he is leaving because we will see him again 7 days later. SO I guess that is a good thing.

This is all mine to know and bear. It kills me that he is leaving and has chosen to miss Ds school production. I try to get into to his mind set to understand more, but I can't. I can't understand the reasoning that much have gone on in his head to make lead him to that decision. Is it 'kids are resilient?' is it, 'she is only 5 it doesn't really matter?'.

I know H can't 'see' me anymore.

I should go. Am at work.