MLC, affair, internet pictures, we're a mess

[cantslowdown]

Some nightsg I feel such anger and hurt. I know that for myself I am standing not because I need her or because I liked the way things were before this (we definitely needed improvement), but because my young children deserve the adults who brought them into the world to act like adults and think of their needs first. I am a strong believer that in most cases children are better off with both parents around. For her to just recklessly say they'll be fine angers me so much. I stand because they deserve my best shot. If things still go to hell I believe I will be stronger for them by building a better foundation for myself and what I believe in.

Just feeling pissed tonight. Angry about the situation. I realize that since the Mc on Monday I'm teetering on fight or flight myself and I dont want to instigate anything that gets us divorced sooner because i lose self control over my tongue. Does an ic ever help? The last one I saw wanted me go write her love letters and compete against other guy. I chose not to as I didn't agree with that approach. I think i need to talk to someone though.