Making it work, for me

[sweetbabyred]

H continued to text off and on and I responded when I got home from the gym. H said he'd understand if I didn't want to talk to him.

I told him that I was fine with being friends, but if he dropped our friendship because another girl told him to, it would be the last time he'd hear from me. I didn't want to be or have temp or backup friends.

He said that I'd drop him and SS if I found someone, which obviously isn't true as I love SS dearly. And I'm too stubborn and independent for some new guy to change that.

I told H that he should make sure he was over OW before he contacted me, as it would just p!ss her off if they got back together and she found out. I said that I didn't want any part of the drama.

He admitted that OW didn't like me and felt that H wasn't over me, so she eventually broke it off.

Later on, H called me and I decided to answer this time. I know not to believe any of what he says, so I just listened, but didn't expect to hear anything that would change my life.

H admitted that OW did use him and was only out for herself. H said that he's told other friends that he's not sure why he left me when he knows that I'm the only one who truly cared/loved him and that I'm so much smarter than anyone else he's been with. Also, that out of everyone he's dated, before and after me, I'm the only one who was a grown woman and had my act together.

It was nice to hear that H is out of the fog enough to realize what he's given up. At least until he hears from OW and forgets all over again.

H wants me to go to his apt after work tonight to pick up my Christmas ornaments as he's going to be out of town for a week. I don't think I'm ready to see him yet, so I may tell him I can't drive that far tonight.

Even if I don't want him back, I want to look good when I see him and after a full day of work and shopping I'm not going to look my best.

At one point H said that he wished that we could make it work, but it never would. Then later he said he hadn't gotten over me and wanted things to be different.

I just wish H would realize that relationships only work when both people work on them. Otherwise he's just going to go from one R to another and never make it stick.

Right now I just feel sad that he's so lost and still isn't doing anything to fix it. And he wonders why he keeps finding people who use him.