Yes, she is. We both have dated. I have no idea what level she is at with anyone else.
Another really tough part is missing my ex-step-daughter. My ex has allowed the relationship between my ex-step-daughter and I to go where it may but my ex-step-daughter, 10, was really angry at us both, and in general is not comfortable spending time with me now. We've hung out a few times, and, this was a tough one, twice she would be in my ex's car driving by (we still live in the same complex) and she would open her door and just run towards me and grab on and not let go....really pulls on the emotions...
I really want all this to work and have really been putting all kinds of effort into living my daily life now. Before I even think about if reconciliation is even possible I want to do as much as I can to better how I live my life, to better me. I am good enough as I am IF I am happy with myself - I am not - I want to live my life more. I know this happened for a reason and I intend to learn from it and take advantage of this energy it has given me in every way.
I'm only about 5 mnths into it and have a long way to go...
