b/c I felt that even Mother Teresa would have trouble doing it. For instance, "Applaud loudly for the 1% of positives h does", was one I had real difficulty doing. Mostly b/c I focussed on the 90+% if things he did wrong or did not do. I focussed on my unmet needs.
Change that focus, even if just for now...You can always leave him later.
Divorce remains an option, and I know you are tired of being in pain.
You're sick & tired of feeling sick & tired. I get it.
But hey, it's December...can you do as Mach suggests, and for now, "just be"? Rest a bit, for you are very weary.
Focus on meeting your own needs, being a great mom, and leave him be, too.
Besides, you know you need more financial security before making a change, right? Since, knowledge is power, have you seen a L to discuss your options?
you might feel empowered by it, and that may help you feel better about a lot of things.
For me, knowing I'd be fine financially, either way, made me feel I was NOT trapped in my m, but was choosing to stay married.
Make sense?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
