I have not contacted her since that day. She did ask me to do something for her via email, I did it but did not response. I am start trying to move forward. Thing for me I havealot of free time now, and always thinking of her. I start a knickboxing class to give myself something to do. I have been waiting for the divorce papers to arrive. If they ever do. I am not going to be the one to push for them. I still have hope that maybe she will change her mind. But the question I need to ask myself is do I think thkngs would be different. I know the my w has pushed people out of her life in the past only to regret it, and she would wonder why she had no freinds, she would eventually allow them back into her life. When she looking at me and told me that I was disgusting that was not my w what I saw there was her mother. For now I will keep on keepjng and with my family and therapist I am try to get though this. For now I struggle with the queztion if I could let myself love someone, like that again.
