Great to hear from you! Im glad you did a heartfelt post. Basically that's how I feel about my situation with XH at the time too.
I've taken the rose colored glasses off and realized my marriage was not good the last several years. I've realized that our relationship at this point and time is so unhealthy that he and I have no business being together. I have no desire to be with him now because he is just not a nice person.
Im enjoying being single, but yet do miss an element of marriage at the same time.
Yet at the same time I hold the good times we had very dear and close to my heart. I guess XH does too....the girls told me he's mentioned funny things that happened with us in years past with alot of laughter. I've heard from my SIL she feels XH misses family times too by the things he says and does. I didn't get details about what he says and does, but she's noticed that in him. I trust her.
Honestly I think we're still energetically connected to these people. Perhaps even if they appear as if they've just gone on without looking back, they're still thinking of us. Honestly look at us, who've chosen to keep walking forward and appear to not be looking back and putting on the act of our lifetimes "as if" we're fine, and they're never coming back.
The only difference is, we're here posting about what's really going in with our feelings and sharing it. AS for them, I highly doubt they're doing the same.
Yep Antonia, that's what I've wondered. Will I always feel this connection to him and have to deal with these waves of emotion for the rest of my life? Am I still holding on? Or is this just grief?
The only thing I know to do is accept that's how I feel and just let it wash over me.
