Making it work, for me

[sweetbabyred]

I took a few days to think more on H's out of the blue email. I did respond, on Monday, with a brief email saying I'd respect his wishes and wished only the best for him, but would reserve the right to email him on financial issues, etc. outside of Chase quickpay if I needed to.

I'd accidentally seen on fb that H's status sometime on Sunday was "so, so sad". I swear, he's turned into a drama queen. And for someone who was supposedly unhappy with me, he's shared a lot more unhappiness with all his friends over the past year or so. At least with me he hid it from everyone before.

I still haven't looked at his page since Oct, but it did kind of confirm my suspicion that things possibly weren't going well with OW.

And this afternoon I got a text saying "well, i guess I can talk to you now." ooh, am i supposed to be overjoyed by this? even if i was, chances are he'll be back with her in a day or so anyway.

I was at work so I didn't respond. H then sent another text saying that he was sad that SS wouldn't be coming to visit for Christmas. And finally a "hello?".

Eventually I took a break and just responded that I missed SS too and had just sent his gifts out today.

A few months ago, I would have been so happy to hear anything from H. But I've realized that I don't want a friend who is going to drop me as soon as a girl tells him too. I can't respect that. I deserve better than that and I'm strong enough to say no to anything less than I deserve.