Hi Sweet Briar! Thanks for dropping in and posting! It's good to hear from you.
I understand how hard this Holiday Season is for you, I really do. I know I can't say anything to make the pain go away, because no one could do that for me. All I can say is New years Day I was so relieved that I survived the Holidays! I was still down but I then believed if I could make it through that, then I could make it all the way. I just had to keep putting one foot infront of the other.
One thing that's helped me through backslides and tough times is to accept that I still grieve over the loss of my husband no longer being in our family. It's ok to grieve the loss and sometimes it's just a relief to admit thats what's going on. It just dawned on my that my girls and myself still are grieving the loss of him walking out on us. This is part of healing.
Sometimes we just don't have to be so brave all the time. Put down the bravery and feel what you need to feel. The wave will eventually pass, and then give you more stamina to carry on with being courageous as you become stronger.
Even though it feels weird with them not around, remember that having the priveledge of your children with you, and you being able to see them grow, and learn, and be there for the most special things is a gift that you get to keep. Unfortuneatly these MLCers are missing it. That makes me sad. But right now that's the choice they've made.
