I am devastated

[littleGTO]

You tried to kill yourself?!!!! Have you been seeing a professional counselor? If not, I would suggest finding a good pro-marriage IC.

Concerning your H...I was given the exact same "there's just something missing in our M," line. I agree w need to each find the 180s that we can do & take ownership in our part of the failure of our Ms, BUT don't take the majority of the blame. This is THEIR problem, THEIR confusion, THEIR MLC.

I understand about how crushed you feel. It's been 5 months, 23 days since I found out about OW & I still feel the pain so deeply that I wonder if I EVER will be able to move forward.

But, I know I will. This site is amazing & the people here are the ONLY ones that will really understand what you are going through! We are here to support each other & we are all on parallel journeys.

Don't underestimate the "sex" thing-for a man this is very important. And even though you believed it was fine, it he was having ED for a long period of time, you can believe it was NOT fine for him (not your fault at all, but he might be looking for a solution w OW that he's NOT going to find...as indicated by his bopping around from one OW to the next.

Breathe. Take one day at a time. One hour at a time if you need to. It will get better over time- YOU will get through this, w or w/o him. Believe in your own strength.

Use this time to focus on your kids (I know this is really, really hard, when all you can seem to do is focus on HIM). Then focus on YOU. This is not an easy thing to get through--in fact, it may be the hardest thing you'll ever have to do, but you have us here.

Hang in there, Itina!