Friday night was good. I saw alot of OLD friends including the couple that my xw and I spent the most time with. It was good to see them.
I talked about my new life. They commented on my looks and personality. It's still weird to be the "hot" woman in the room. Now I'm also the one who can kick a$$ (I guess all the insanity workouts are starting to show)!
No pretending on my end. I'm not sure I've made it... but I'm certainly not faking it. And the GAL and 180's have been amazing. I said I feel like a new person, they agreed and were ecstatic for me.
Saturday went well. It was clear that I was the bridesmaid that's "done this before". Alot of "how did you know" questions.
I was surprised how painless it was. I shouldn't be. I prayed almost the whole hour drive there.
Btw - I told my friend that when she found HER dress that she would know.. that she would be silenced by her emotions and would cry......
... funny... she did just that.
Sunday was fun. Alot of interesting things happened.
In short.. the fundraiser is now officially bigger than I can handle by myself. I'm not going to lie, it caused some stress but my friends stepped up.
And it was awesome introducing my film friends to my basketball friends to my lesbian friends to my DB friends. Soo many personalities. It was great!
I learned a ton. Things I want to change for next year. Oh.. growing pains... how do I enjoy that they are part of my everyday life.
The girl that I've been interested in came... and I had an epiphany there too.
I'm not going to settle. It would be an uphill battle and although I am thoroughly enjoying the new feelings... I'm gonna wait until for someone who has the same "moral" code that I do.
Dropped off the gifts from the fundraiser today. 35 children was the final count! The organization was super appreciative and we talked about how I could get more involved.
I went with my co-host and we had our picture taken together.. She posted in on FB and my xw liked the photo.
It IS the first picture/status that she has liked that included me. I am a little surprised....
.. but don't worry folks. No rollercoaster for me. My xw should like the status. It was a great day and she did play a part of the seed planting.
If I can't thank her now, at least she got to see how it's grown over the past couple of years.
Leaving for home tomorrow. I'm gonna freeze to death.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
