It's set for Saturday....tree trimming, dinner cooked by me, no movie. Crowds sometimes make her nervous right now and she doesn't want that in front of kids.
S20 and D17 may have work, but S16 is definitely in. He also likes to cook sometimes so hope we can make it a team effort.
Want to talk to her about Christmas...of course id love to spend whole time with her here.
And as long as I'm here I may as well say this: Pissed about probability that OM will buy my W gifts. And possibility she will buy him gifts. I know there is nothing I can do about it. But that's the definition of frustration.
I want to take my W out on New Years Eve. Weve always made it special. This has always been our prime "dating season" with holidays, anniversary together, then her birthday early January. I want all those dates...controlling? Expecting?need to cool it. Do i want those dates While I am pissed...more about the sitch than at her now, I THINK?
So much positive to focus on. Stress comes when I think about these dates. I see them as key times to build upon progress...That's why I want to seize control of them. I need to work my self back into the frame of mind I had before anniversary date...hopeful, prepared, not expecting, ready to drop my plans.
I know in her heart she WANTS to spend all of Xmas w/kids. What mom wouldn't? I want her to. I think I'll offer to go to my brothers for part of the day a)to give her a break from me b)shes not ready to socialize w/my family, especially large scale.
This Saturday I am going to get her in a REALLY good mood and test the waters for the new year thing.
Positives: everything between W and I for the past week, maybe more (considering...). The negatives are in my head.
Me 46 W 43 S 21 D 18 S 17 M 22 yrs Discovered OM 9/10/12 W moved to sister's 9/15/12 W moved to OM 9/27/12 Tried to DB until 7/13 W filed 10/7/13. Did not serve. I counter filed 12/2/13.
