Oh yes- read them both. At this point my goals only pertain to myself though. That feels rather selfish.
1. Finish degree/graduate 2. Continue to help children transition 3. Get my financial house in order 4. Finish some repairs on my house 5. Buy new house/move 6. Clean up my body clutter 7. Rebuild relationships/friendships that have been let go. 8. Continue counseling.
As far as H - I really have no goals. I would like to just let that whole situation go for the time being. Sounds dumb probably. I guess perhaps I hope that we can have a non contentious relationship. I still tend to revert to the victim when I am around him and let him bully me in his way. Or that is how it feels to me. I really need to work on that and not letting him have that power. I think that is another reason why I say let it go. By that I mean just do nothing. Not deal with it. That way I guess I don't get hurt any more. Part of me still feels like much of what he does is intentionally to hurt. I would eventually like it if in some way he simply didn't have such a low opinion of me. I'm not sure that will ever happen so rather than worry about it I would rather not deal with him. Also, I have experienced lately (not just from him but his family) that they really want me out of the way. It's hard to articulate. You talk about fired but I have been all the way around. Straight up his family is rude and nasty to me. They do not even pretend to be cordial because of our kids. Ironic thing is that I am the one that was screwed over. I have just determined these people are crazy and I am better off avoiding them at all costs. Same goes for H at this time.
