Stuck between a hard place and the biggest rock.

[Big Bruce]

Hello,
I didn't mean to raise such a outrage with my comment. Being more interested in the former doesn't mean I am not interested in the latter.

I am very interested in the daily basics such as his eating properly, sleeping well, cleanliness, and I am even more interested in communicating him with spiritual and intellectual insight.

I just didn't have much opportunity to dwelve in depth into the practicalities, the how to. That's all, and I am fully dediacted to learning and doing, when the opportunity will show up.

Now, as for W, if her main reproach to me was my being an uninvolved father, the last thing I want to do is to not address that.
It would be counterproductive of me to lament on this site if on the other hand I didn't follow the advice given here, right? For this reason, when I say I mean to get involved with S, I DO MEAN IT . Big time.

For the greasy foods, W has told me. There is no way I could have found that since I only had two hour visits until recently, and his upset stomach happens usually at night or at a time when I'm not around.

I take responsibility for my shortcomings and failures, especially my marital one. And I have done several 180s and 360s since the beginning. If all fails, I want to be able to look in the mirror and say I have tried all I could.

As it is, my life is screwed up, as if I had an automobile accident and lost half of me. Since 6 months I don't take pleasure in any of the things the world offers. I am in constant torment. Therefore, I have nothing to lose changing and becoming a better father and a better man. Then in a couple of years, I can go and rest in peace.