wednesday is d-day. found out a bunch of stuff. STBX is trying to get full custody. she just lost her job. she didnt pick up the kids until the day after she was supposed to. said she was helping her mom. truth came out on sunday. she was with OM in a different state. he wouldnt wake up so they missed their plane. he is still married btw. she wants my 401k and back pay for her"contribution" to the family unit. i still dont have a lawyer. Social services told me she is trying to get papers saying im a child abuser. their legal department told her and her lawyer it wasnt going to happen. they did their investigation and found me to be an excellent father. the investigator told me i couldnt have a better judge for my case. hopefully shes right.
with all this going on, all i can do is try to stay positive. keep being a good dad, taking care of me and praying. there has to be a light at the end of this tunnel. im going to get through this. acting as if is helping. i get down on myself sometimes. i still love her. not the same way, but i still do. i think i always will. we had some really good times. she was my best friend. i dont understand her meanness, and i dont think i ever will. it doesnt really matter. all i know is i love myself too much to put myself back on her rollercoaster.
