Finally approaching the starting line!

[eyesopen]

So I am starting to see a pattern in my sitch. Seems like lately I go a couple of weeks feeling really good and then, WHAM, the roller coaster takes a plunge. Not sure what triggers it normally. This time though I feel it is because the interactions lately have been very warm between us. Makes me want to reach out with a "I miss you" or "Thinking of you." Maybe see if she wants to get a cup of coffee. But since I don't think I could do it without any expectations I won't. And that is what gets me down.

We received a lot of snow over the past two days and when I dropped the kids off after church yesterday my w expressed how good she was feeling, the winter wonderland effect. We both have always enjoyed the winter. It was really nice to see her in good spirits.

I know we are not supposed to do any temperature checks, but I really want to know how see is feeling about me/us? Hard to get that thought out of my head.
Detach, detach, detach!!!