I think it is good that you have decided not to pursue a new job right now. I believe this will create some stability for you to stay where you are for now.
It must have been very painful to write the email to H. Give yourself time to grieve and go through the emotions. Feel them and process them so you don't hold them and fester them.
I am not very good at the advice. Please take care of yourself and take things slow.
Thinking of you (((( ))))
Commando style!
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
