You sound maybe a little blue. I'm sorry for that. IDK DB well enough to give that kind of advice, so this is just from me. (Plus your sitch is kind of unique it seems because you are a former distancer.)
I think maybe you should keep a calendar, or even a journal. Something so you know how often you do make contact and perhaps some sort of indication of what was said... then you could make sure you weren't calling too often.
Gotta run.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
