i am feeling really low the past few days. i think it is the holidays. i am trying to accept the feelings and not resist them but they do not seem to be passing through... i feel as if i am too far along in the process to feel this way... it has been 17 months since BD.
it is strange, a few weeks ago i think i was feeling my best since BD... really felt like myself again... and then i had a week solid of dreams about W and her family... and now i feel stuck in the fog again...
ugh.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13
