Escape from Hades

[trainthruhell]

Well, this snooping is at an end, it can't be healthy, and if a miracle occurs, it will be that much harder to forgive. This is difficult since W lives in the same house and it is tempting not to. However, the other day I checked the bag she has hidden away and found, in addition to the toys, drug paraphernalia and dope, a card from the OM expressing his undying love for W. W swore to me that there was no other person involved, I guess that was a lie as well.

What was truly weird was my reaction. I wasn't raving mad, or desperate, or suicidal, just kind of sad. Maybe from reading everything here and in the Divorce Remedy book, MLC usually involves infidelity and I was somehow prepared for it. Sure doesn't make it any easier. Need to keep strong and act happy. The Faith part is still there, it's the Hope that is taking major hits and is fading a bit.

Here is hoping for some good news. Keep reminding myself to let God do his work.