Visitation was okay. It's weird when we go we are normal. Like before- laugh and talk but of course the jokes are a bit more sardonic. Things are strange though. On some level I think h still wants some sort of relationship- for instance something ( insect) bit him repeatedly over and over on the neck. He wanted me to look at it- asked me what to do for it- if I thought he should go to dr. It just struck me that he trusted my opinion and judgement. I mean why not ask ow? Also he is still doing the be careful comments and that sort of thing which may mean nothing but I don't think so. He quit saying it when OW/XW moved back in now he is back to it and frankly often our relationship is just as contentious as always. Since S got in trouble H has willingly come every time I have asked which is very new. Asked D's to come over next weekend put up Xmas tree told them ow would not be there. I actually did invite him for dinner on wed if S gets to come home ( which he should I feel much more positive about that whole sit) he didnt respond looked at me a little strangely. I did say I promise not to poison you lol and made a joke of it. It was really an offer just to allow him to be a part of it for S. frankly H makes me uncomfortable for the most part. Something that made me smile- H brings a thermos of coffee in the mornings and I really wondered about it and even asked him basically just pointed to my coffee pot indicating it was on and some was made. He made it a point to tell me he was fine and had some. I think OW makes it for him which is dumb but whatever- we have already discussed how stupidly controlling she is- but the D's said as soon as I left (after he made a big deal about it) he had them pour his out and drank mine. Lol anymore it's the little things I guess. Maybe eventually they will add up. I did check his bank account balance via the automated phone thing just to see if he was lying about money. He wasn't. I don't think he is going the spending though which is ironic. There were several payments though that were bills and honestly at this point he has none. OW has used his debit card to set up payment of her bills. Lol I am willing to bet that 3 months tops is all he will deal with of this. I can't explain but I get the feeling there is already some trouble in paradise. Nothing specific but just a feeling. Some of the things he has done lately have been out of consideration for me. Like offering to keep D's while I visit S when we didn't have anyone to. I don't dare say anything more against her though because I am definitely being compared and measured against. Interesting though. I wonder how this will all go when he realizes I am serious about never going back and him needing to fix himself first? I also don't think he is in a hurry to divorce. Again weird. Mentally I am in a better place today although I have a horrifying stomach virus. I just keep replaying and going over things I my mind. I hate it when I do that. I am going to try to catch up on others threads tonight.
