That's pretty much what I did. Became my own worse enemy - lost focus of me and the kids. Part of the reason was that she mirrored many of the OM days. Looked really good and was withdrawn / short with me. As far as when she gets back, at some point I will apologize for being human in a difficult sich. Confidently share triggers.
As far as getting out of the cycle of torturing myself, I guess I need regive things to the higher power, and do my best to practice what I've been preaching about letting things actually play out. Thoughts / tips? ..and thanx LaBug. I need(ed) to hear from someone close; and I don't want to call family or friends with this one.
