MLC, affair, internet pictures, we're a mess

[cantslowdown]

She asked tonight what time I was going out tomorrow night. After I told her, she suggested we drive around as a family to look at Christmas lights before I go. I said I thought that was a great idea (it was actually something I was going to suggest myself next weekend).

I'm still going to enjoy my alone time afterwards, but even if her idea is only with the kids in mind, at least she's having it with us all as a family. That was the number one point I had wanted her to think about before just walking out. That we may not know each other very well right now, but we owe it to our children to GET to know each other and that could take time.

I'll count this as a baby step, even though its quite possible that something unbelievably crazy could always happen with her in the next week and I don't think I would be shocked by her actions.

I am excited to go out by myself. I think I am going to make it at least a couple times a month thing. Even if other times are not shopping or even at night. Maybe a daytime hike. Maybe I find something interesting to do around town. I don't know. I do know that whatever it is it can be something I am interested in and don't have to worry about whether or not anyone else thinks its cool or not.