Yes, I think you had a realization of what was really going on in your sitch. It's a difficult place to go but go there we must.
Now, what will you do with that knowledge?
Oh how do I love thee!! I appreciate the question.
What will I do?!?! Hhmm well definitely gonna talk it over with my IC. Now that I recognize some of my behaviors I am gonna do my best to reverse the behavior. I'm not sure the best way to make it a habit rather than a desire. I guess I need to try to keep noticing when I am starting to act this way and either walk away from the sitch or just shut up. I know I will have to work at this as this is part of who I am right now. I do not want to continue to hurt my wife and children with this behavior, motivation is on my side.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
