Thanks Mr. B. That makes perfect sense actually. These changes are for me and the rest of my life. Not for her. She might benefit from them but ideally they are for me. I get it. Second night with no passcode and it feels pretty good not to have that stress anymore. I'm not texting a sole about my M issues anymore so nothing really to hide.

I see your point 25 on that time of the month. This is beyond that though. Google PMMD. Its when she ovulates she gets migraines and yes heckle and jyde. But as LA, Advina, and many others have pointed out. Doesn't matter. I can't control that. It is what it is. I either live with it or move on. Does it frustrate me she doesn't see it. Hell yes. But really nothing I can say or do to make the issue go away or get better. You see that I've given up control lol.

She was complaining of being in pain tonight when I got home. I just ugh that stinks.

Decent night tonight. Came home early to help her out. My S was sick so she had a long day with both kids at home.

I just had an extra step in me tonight. I even sent her a funny video of me dancing in the car when going to pick up dinner tonight. I use to goof like this alot. Me and W had lots of positive interactions today via txt and in person. She initiated most of the txts. I was short and humorous. Like I use to be in the past.

She even mentioned that OM HS friend to me in conversation and I didn't even get anxious. I just listened and enguaged in conversation.

Played with the kids and realized how important it is for me to continue to work on myself for this family. They are my rock.

Audiobooks rock when you have 2 hour commute from work and stuck in traffic. I finished 5 love languages. Not sure I even know my own love language and not sure if I know hers lol. I can say this. Not sure I can really even apply his principals to my current marriage situation. Although I do think her LL might be "acts of service". I think she likes when I help out around the house etc. I'm starting to think my LL is "words of affirmation"

Anyways overall good night.

I am going in for surgery on myself Monday morning. Sleep apnea stuff. Not a heavy guy either, my septum is crooked and I snore like a lumber jack. So not attractive and something I always wanted to fix but to chicken.

cheers and thanks everyone for your valuable feedback.