Well here's an interesting event. I think the veteran DB-ers are probably going to yell at me but my H was here tonight hanging out with my D and I and before he left I hugged him. My neighbor down the street, a woman, is in a MLC and is having an EA with another man. She has been sharing her story with me and I have been sharing mine with her. I think we've been helping each other see the other POV. Sounds like she's starting to come out of it and realize how much her husband means to her and I think her hearing about the pain and suffering me and my D are going through is helping. Anyway, it was her suggestion. Her husband did it to her and it triggered something in her. So when he was leaving, I walked up to him and just hugged him and told him no one would love or appreciate him more than me and D. He said "I know you've told me". I just responded "I know. Have a good weekend" and I walked away. He didn't pull away, I dropped my arms first. In a way I feel a bit of regret for doing it but not a lot. Its the first I've said it to him since this started straight to his face and it was the first time I have shown him any type of physical affection. I do not plan on contacting him at all now and just let him have something to think about. Yell away!!
