I've had friends say to be that he is taking advantage of me. By me not saying "she's your responsibility this weekend" to him and letting him come and go as he pleases. There's no "arrangement" because he left. We had this silly "weekend on/off" thing but basically it has always been him coming and going and me doing everything. When it was "his" weekend, he would stick around in the evening but he would still work, hunt, shoot, etc like he always has. Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with my daughter, I just sometimes feel stupid and weak by not saying "I'm going out, you're watching D". I just let him make his plans and I arrange a sitter if need be. I feel stupid but also think I'm showing him I'm supporting him so he can do the things he loves. I don't think I'm portraying neediness...I don't think anyway, what would that look like? And yes I know I should exercise, I used to work out every day before this started but H was around to watch D. I'm making space in my bedroom to work out after she goes to bed. That's my goal for next week.
