Thanks FY. I agree with what you are saying. However, I do not see W during the week anyway since we separated (except S pick up Friday evening and drop S things off Monday morning after I leave him at school) so it would make no difference. I will still do pick up and drop off as usual. I would just be staying away from Monday and coming back Friday afternoon each week. Obviously not during christmas period either and it will be for a max of 2 months (I would never do this permanently). We can also still talk on the phone/text etc.
We are not at the point of working out our differences and are only just at the beginning of the first signs of starting to enjoy communicating with each other again. But this is mostly day to day stuff and no talk about R or anything like that other than when W showed emotion last week.
My main worry is that W would see this as me not being around for her/putting work or me first etc. My main motivation is that I still see myself as the provider and if I can earn more for all of us then I will. I am 4 hrs drive away if I do need to come back for whatever reason and if things change with W then obviously that would always be my priority and work know that. I will see her Monday before I go and I would like to somehow tell her that. However, I cannot put life and opportunities on hold either.
But IDK. Please tell it as it is - am I being selfish? will this make any difference, am I overthinking it?. I do love W dearly but am starting to enjoy life again and realise that I had lost me in the M as well.
