Oh we had slip ups. Just maybe not as obvious as the ones you're doing.
"If my wife would have said no at any time I would have stopped." "I did not initiate the sex."
Contradicting yourself AGAIN. You wanted sex and you got it. You're going to say that it escalated to that, etc. But the bottom line is that you initiated the foot rub (yes she said okay, but for all we know it was to make YOU happy) which somewhere inside you, thought would lead to sex. I have a feeling that whenever you would "initiate" these gestures in the past, it would turn to sex which she said she didn't want from you. That's why it felt like goodbye sex. She was just giving you what YOU want.
"Her Love Lanuages, seems to be physical touch"
You're way off base there. That seems to be YOUR love language. It's obvious from how you've described her that her LL are actually Words of Affirmation, Acts of Service and "QUALITY" Time (Quality meaning NOT SEX).
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Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
