Then do it. But NOT just for her. I can't believe you don't get that by now.
"sorry for the long Jane Eyre post but this is a real opportunity for me to change my behavior."
AGAIN! STOP saying you're going to change because of her. If it's something you think you should do for the sake of doing it for the better, then do it. You keep saying you're going to do all these things.... THEY ARE ALL PLOYS.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.