I do read the post, but I am still learning what it's all about. I mean were you perfect when you started the process..did you 25 and Mr. Bond make no mistakes have no slip ups, have no backsliding.
If you did great for you, but I am clearly not as strong as you. I just want my family back.

When I say something and she looks hurt and confused I feel the need to say something else to try to help the situation. But it reminds of people who are in a hole in the ground and they think the only option is to dig more. I know I need to STFU.

I'm not trying to make things worse. I'm starting to share the responsibility with the house and kids more. She still gets on me for not doing the laundry right or not moping the floors right. but at least I'm trying.

Comparing it to rape is absurd. I recognized my mistake on this. If my wife would have said no at any time I would have stopped. I think you are projecting some of your own issues onto my situation and frankly it is insulting. They way I understand even MWD is not settled on the issue of sex during a separation.

I did not initiate the sex. I simply wanted offered her some non sexual touch i.e. a foot rub. Her Love Lanuages, seems to be physical touch so I wanted to give something to her. Yes the sex was too soon and clearly. But I did learn that and can apply it to the next situation that arises.

The mind reading is so hard to control, but I HAVE To do it. I think when my mind wanders or wants to try to mind read I will redirect my mind to some comedy routines that I enjoy .

Last night my wife had her work holiday party. it was the first one without me. I spend some quality time with the kids. We had pizza and then watched a movie. After bed time I watched a couple of movies that made me think. Crazy, stupid, love and the Descendants. Yeah both hit a little too close to home for me. I shed a couple of tears during the shows.

Then my wife comes home I pretend everything this wonder and happy. she asked about my night and I asked about the party and then she goes off to bed. She looked beautiful when she came home, but I didn't say anything.